WordsFallFromMyEyes

Hi, & thank you for pausing my way. I have written since given my first diary at age 10 by Aunty Rosalie (r.ip.). I credit her that I began writing. Yet, recording my life - through my box camera & tape recorder as a teen - I have done since "forever". I now often make videos for the blog - a chapter reading, or just a silly skit. Love it. Search 'video' in search bar to be led to such a post. I began capturing my life because it was surreal to me that I existed. I also had a strong sense I would die sooner rather than later (contemplated suicide endlessly in my teens, and forward), and wanted a record I'd been here. It was all very surreal, being alive. WordsFallFromMyEyes tells my story in part but not whole. WFFME centres on the first years of my son's life, & mentions my history (abusive childhood, alcoholic father, mother suicided weekend of my sixth birthday, orphanage) in the context of how MY RAISING affected MY CAPACITY to parent - and I wish to pass on the message to stop abuse: for you affect THAT CHILD'S CAPACITY TO FUTURE PARENT. That is, you affect the world ever, ad infinitum. This my blog I began Aug'11, is a book I've long wanted to write. The facts re my son/his father I recovered from journals I began to my unborn child, continued through his toddlerhood, TORTUROUS Family Court battles; & ponderances in recall of experiences/life as me: individual, spirited & highly passionate, desperately pained, alone, & crowded. THIS IS A FIRST DRAFT, but you'll not see a book like this on the shelves, for all the books on the shelves are positive baby books "Welcome to motherhood :) :) :)"! No books on the shelves address what my son & I survived. I write in release of me but in doing so, hope in some way to give to YOU - inspiration. Thank you, your interest. ~ My novel THE JAMES DIARY, I wrote when I'd left my marriage, literally wrote squatting at my locker between breaks of shift at Burswood Casino. I was a rookie croupier, he was an experienced and familiar inspector. I had never experienced such an avalanche of lust and desire for another human being - not even in my marriage. And then, to realise, he had only wanted to taste the new talent out of croupier school, and he ended it... I had not ever experienced anything like it. Video trailer for THE JAMES DIARY - available on Amazon (search 'The Jam