Nomi

Everything I have read indicates that the profile is the ace in the hole for the blog. If that is the case then i am deeply screwed. You see i hate myself and no power in the world has ever convinced me otherwise from within. Having living 3 decades of my life, I can confidently tell you that the power to change how you look at yourself can only come from within. Maybe something is wrong with my mechanism or something. In Greek mythology, an man once asked the Greek Gods for a body insusceptible to harm. Because the Gods had a twisted sense of humor, his entire body resisted the arrows except for one poisoned arrow that struck his heel. He died. Whether he had taken martial arts training and was giving a flying kick to someone during war is a topic most history books fail to touch upon but this episode gave rise to the term "The Achilles Heel". The profile is mine. I don't really know what to write here so I will just try to write whatever comes to mind when I think of me. I love to play video games, read about tech, watch series, anime, cartoons, reading books, articles, movies, trying to dabble in photography, reading about new phones and cars, listening to all sorts of music and other stuff. My name is Nomi. Its what I like to be called. My real name means "blessing of God". I think when people are naming their kids, they wanna keep a name that brings an image to their mind. Unfortunately some of the sort of nincompoops who can't ever see it that way. Even if you somehow become a blessing of God later on, you haven't been one until that point so what's the point then. A facade if there ever was. So I go by Nomi. People tell you that you are capable of great things. They tell you that everything is possible if you believe it. Luck apparently favors the bold. From the life I've lived so far, I can tell you that's its Sasquatch. Crappie doodle doo. Bull shit. I'm a person who only believes this. You live your life trying. Don't be a dumb ass thinking you can brave anything. You probably wont. & it doesn't matter. Just keep using your head and keep trying. Don't think "with a lil bit of luck, it'll be okay". It definitely wont. What you need to do is to tell yourself & UNDERSTAND that luck is going to be that pain in the ass who will definitely try to make things difficult so try to plan ahead as much as possible while staying as flexible as possible. Accept your mistakes as far as possible but this acceptance is utterly pointless if you do not learn something from it and DO your DAMNDEST to not let it happen again. Keep your nightmares limited to the time you close your eyes. Let them stay there. Nothing new in that. Make sure you prepare yourself beforehand because the day WILL come when they'll all come true. Nothing new in that. Trust nobody but don't entirely mistrust anybody either. You will have to learn about people and choose what part to trust about them and what not to. Keep working hard whether you have a goal or not. Hope should not be relevant to you. Just keep going. One day you will die. Exactly before death, you will feel you've done nothing in your life. This is definitely going to happen. You cannot stop it from happening but you can definitely deaden it a lil, reduce it a lil, kill it a lil. That is what you should work towards. Learn to smile no matter what. Learn to laugh no matter what. The next day you should definitely be able to keep a smile on your face no matter what the situation is. Learn to try to take care of people no matter what. Make no mistake. You don't take care of people because you really care for them. You take care of people for your own satisfaction. You do it because you wanna sleep. Before you do something, THINK. Stop whatever it is that you are rushing through, inhale, hold your breath, count to 5 then think & so whatever it is you are going to do. Test your sixth sense, believe it and try to build it. You must have a fail safe for the worse of worse situations. Tomorrow if you don't have a fail safe, the only acceptable reason would be that you didn't think of it before. Logic must prevail. Logic must precede emotion. You have to learn when NOT to your brain and listen to your heart instead. Thinking is important but learning to organize your thoughts is important-er (i know it aint a word **shameless smile**) and this is the reason why I have a blog. My blog is my blog. It is my space on the net full of my ramblings. It is my newspaper. It is my column. It is my book. It is my eBook. It is my attempt to pull out a little bit of artistry from me. Its full of my ramblings and quotes and the rest of my malarkey. So I write one whenever possible. & otherwise I'm a getting fat, balding man whose voice has a pip squeak in it. Yup, that's me..I guess..ummm...no..ummm..ok..ukh..LEAVE it..