P.S. Everheart

Upon your arrival to my loquacious nature. This is in one of several sites where I may or may not pour out my thoughts instead of hording reams of paper and eating computer storage space. Of course, in the course of reading my posts, you might find my writing effusive, long-winded. I concur with the general description. However, allow me to assure you that I do not suffer from logorrhea. Therefore, while I might take you on a journey of words they will be useful and coherent. At least it is my hope that that will be the case. I am delighted that you have for whatever reason decided to visit my journal site. If I happen to know you, I will most likely add you to my friends list. This will then open the different portals of my writing styles. Yes, I said styles. Through these different venues, I will guide you through the strange and twisted pathways, which make up the dark garden of my mind. Where in delights and wonders grow, with a few unique and bizarre roses along the way. Let me first say that I try to update my many profile pages as often as I can, since I continue to evolve. With each evolution, I have to add or take away information on my profile so that it reflects truthfully the person I am and the person I am becoming. By way of introduction, I am called Silence or Wolf, sometimes a combination of these names since they seem to work that way. I am sure there is a large array of other epithets used to describe me out there as well. I will not go into the vulgar or rude terms, though I will certainly allow that they are out there. For those of you who actually know me, well you can call me by my given name or my nickname. I would normally divulge much but it has become increasingly clear that blogs are becoming a dangerous place to voice ones true thoughts and therefore their mundane identities least their business world, school worlds, or others worlds suddenly collide. These being mainly because way too many companies, schools and families have been taking it upon themselves to act as the super conscious of their employees, students and yes family members. As well as the numerous companies who now search the web looking to see if prospective employees are keeping a blog and if so what it is they blog about. All this leads one to assume that we (the bloggers of the world) are unable to police our own consciousness. Granted there seems to be good reason for this as the behavior displayed by more than a few people seems to display a slide into the states of unreason coupled with spiritual and emotional folly. At a glance, the news media gives us a clue that many have become hypersensitive to the mental states of those whom work, play, and socialize with them. Whether or not, I am one of these poor broken souls, you will have to decide for yourself. I will not attempt to sway you one way or the other. Regardless of which name you prefer I will of course answer to either. More often than not, it becomes impossible for those who seriously know me to separate the two into two different aspects since I am normally wholly myself in all situations. Granted the name Wolf is by far the older of the two names since it dates from my earliest involvement within the Craft. This should be simply stated by assuring you, that you find yourself at the site of an old-time Witch. I have been involved in the Craft for so many years that I have ceased counting. Moreover, as my teenager will tell you, our family was wearing the pentacle long before it was a fashion statement. Silence came out of my exploration of the darker aspects of human nature, the part most of us hide from others as well as our selves namely the exploration of our personal beliefs and ideals about sex and sexuality. We tend to hide these from others and ourselves in some strange and vain attempt to believe that, the body and spirit can be separated from each other. Through exploration and understanding we can learn that this is not the case, that the soul and body are indeed a united whole. Having mentioned this some of you will of course wonder what I look like. If you are indeed wondering what I look like, I provide the following: I am a tall silver haired female, with cat’s eyes really and honestly. I have two different color eyes and have had them my whole life. They are not the result of an accident or contacts. This is actually a heredity trait two of my aunts have the same interesting aspect. I hope that you will just accept me as I appear in writing, and allow me to be your personal guide as I walk you through the labyrinth that is my mind. Realize the entire whole of this site is an encapsulated version of one living being. If I write in two different voices it is not due to some strange multi-personality disorder but because I am speaking from different aspects of a unified whole being. I should warn you that while it may seem that I have implied that I will forego stating my truest and deepest thoughts that is not to be taken at face value. Merely that I will be doing so behind the safety of my pseudonyms and the safety barrier they form against those who might be upset by some of the things I may notice and report upon. I have a long history of wandering the globe; the colloquial term is that I am a globetrotter, not to be confused as a member of the basketball team by said same name. I have enjoyed my travels that have allowed me to explore my fair share of the world. Because of my travels, I have been enriched by the unique, strange, and wonderful aspects out in the wider world. If any of this is mentioned at all, it will be in passing on the general pages of this journal. For the more detailed accounts, you really will have to have access to the sections of my blog open only to friends and family. Requests to join those lists will be considered, but not necessarily granted. Currently I make my home in Aurora Colorado. Perhaps that information should not be provided but I firmly believe Aurora is not small. So locating me in the expanse of the city will not be as easy as one might think. I can even provide you a description of the location wherein I reside. It is a small pocket of wilderness, calm, and peace. This area manages to be a stones throw from the outrages of the chaos known as humanity. Yet at the same instance being a vale of wild life and nature. For being so close to the madness, it is amazing how peaceful and serene my townhouse remains. This sanctuary sits near an area that has been a protected wilderness a passageway for animals, allowing them to make their way pass streets and buildings and continue their lives in relative peace and safety. The council members are either unaware of this place or have forgotten it, and thereby it has been allowed to go unmolested by developers, builders and the like. This citadel of nature, houses in its expanse the native coyotes, foxes, raccoons, eagles, hawks, and a herd mule deer along with other wildlife that have found safe haven in an ever-shrinking world. For my part, I have set up feeders for the smaller animals and birds. While attempting to keep an eye out for the larger animals that roam the area. All the while making sure the humans in the area do no more harm than is their usual unseeing and uncaring nature to do. In my business life, I am a Claims Examiner for the Department of Labor. Please be assured that I DO NOT know any top-secret government projects. The work I perform is not of that caliber. Rather, my job entails me helping federal government employees, both current and former who have become ill because of working in dangerous environments. So you can forget about me being a treasure trove of information in association with the federal government. When not in my mundane worker mode, I turn my hand at writing. I am happy to report that I have a few dozen articles published and or posted under my old Craft names of Wolfs Daughter, as well as Hyasha Dwrydd, Silence who is Wolf and even gasp a few under my mundane name as well. Of course, most recently the published articles have been under my nom de plume of Silence who is Wolf. I have also had some poetry published under my mundane name, along with a short non-fiction story. Nothing to get overly excited about but still delightful. Most of what I have written is of a rather esoteric nature and none of it, fantasy (more is the pity). One of my passions is writing, seconded only by verbal communications, I am loquacious which is a nice way of saying talkative. When not talking or writing I enjoy sitting in silence and reading a good book (mostly esoteric stuff, science fiction, fantasy) or, gathering up my paints and such and producing a few miniatures. My hobbies are many and varied. To attempt to list all of them would be a work all in itself. I should tell you that recently I was exploring the darker gardens of humanity attempting to come to some understanding of the nature and reasoning behind things. Nothing too outrageous, but I was interested in understanding what and how and why about aspects I had hitherto ignored. I have mentioned this elsewhere already but I felt it was worth mentioning a second time, since the odyssey I undertook lead me to some very important spiritual and emotional self discoveries that I was missing in my normal process of journeying. I discovered much about my own personal nature while exploring the darker aspect of things. Though I must in honest, admit that I am better suited to the realms that I have long dwelled in and have spent more years in namely the realms of spirituality and logical thinking. However, I feel I have come away with a much healthier view on sex and sexuality thanks to my explorations, an openness to the exploration. It has also strengthened my relationship with Lyon. Lyon, he who is my lover, my spouse, my best friend, my playmate, and my deepest love, I do not feel inclined to explain further into our relationship. I am also into research and can read a book in less than a day and gather data from it, for any article I might be writing, or to draw out information for another who is working on a project. In fact, I am rather good at it. It is a strange talent to be sure. I am also happily involved in RPGs (Role Playing Games) and very recently I have been turned lose on the internet via the MMORPGs. I am into theology, theology, and psychology, though instead of merely contemplating things I tend to roll up my sleeves and get out into the river to see why people are mucking around. I tend by my nature to reserve judgment of people and their behavior until I have figured out just what is really going on with them and their lives. This is not always easy since so many would rather have me make snap judgments. Just understand I try very hard not to judge people, or claim I am not judging them (when I really am), until I have a better understanding of what is going on in their lives. I am still working on figuring out the 21st century hardware I use, I am seriously trying to catch up with the rest of the world when it comes to computer knowledge. I still prefer pen and paper, which makes this journal a big advancement for me, so do not judge me too harshly. In that venue, I am also attempting to take my collection of music and bring it to my computer so I can have my music collection playing while I pound away at the keyboard. I am mostly into esoteric music with ethnic sounds mixed in, though it would not be unusual to hear Bluestone, Clannad, Dead Can Dance, Delerium, Enigma, Enya, E Nomine, Govinda, Graeme Revell, Gregorian, Jethro Tull, Lesiem, The Mediaevel Baebes, Sleepthief, Vas, Bluestone, in the back ground either. I mention these few to demonstrate the diversity of my musical tastes, so you have an idea what it is I might be listening to while playing or working on the computer. There you have it a simple brief. If however, you would like to know more feel free to post anything here and I will get back to you on it. Seriously, if you have questions, just fire away, I promise to answer. AUTHOR'S WARNING: 'All spelling errors are the work of evil gremlins set on destroying my attempts to communicate.'